I feel like one day I’m going to be caught out and get in trouble, like the powers at be will put me over their lap and spank me (ha ok maybe a little OTT)

Its interesting, even after all these years of being an “adult” and working on myself over and over again.

I still feel unworthy
I still wonder wether I am good enough to be leading
I still dont feel like a real woman
I still compare myself to others
Im still trying to be the best and mostly…

I feel like Im failing.

At all of these things.

I still feel trapped by societies expectations, of what it means to be smart, of what it means to be the best or the leader or. a. woman.

All these rules and standards that I REBEL against yet, they are inside me, burning a whole in my heart, the little girl inside of me is still trying to be better than her sister and failing miserably…

I will never be NORMAL

I will never live up to societies standards and mostly I am ok with that, its only on days like today, where I feel anxious, twisted inside, trying to run from the responsibility of the real world that I feel, well,

Inadequate
Unequipped to fit into this world…

The self questioning doesn’t stop
My mind races…

What if I am exposed as the silly little girl that I feel like…
What if someone realises I don’t know how to be a great mother…
What if people find out I don’t know all the ins and outs of macro-fucking-nutrients…
What if people question me about why I know so much, about their minds, about why they do the things they do…
How do I respond when people ask my, “do you have a degree in psychology?”

Because the things I know about people, about you, about me, I feel like I shouldn’t know…

I know why people do what they do…
I know what their issues are, just by talking to them…
I know what holds them back….
I know when you feel unloved and when you are hiding it through consumption of clothes and food…

I know way too much for my level of “education” and this is why I feel like a fraud…

I don’t fit the “smart” mould
I don’t fit the “do it the right way” mould

I just don’t FIT…

And I feel vulnerable.
I feel like a scared little girl right now that might be exposed…

Normally I am ok with this… not today!

Its in these moments that I am tested, that I realise…

I was NEVER meant to fit into societies BOX…

That is why I fucking CREATED my own.

Guess what its called?…

The SOCIETY – its filled with BADASS REBEL women, that weren’t born to fit into the rules of society, that want to take their own world by storm. They are rising, they are creating their own “norm” their own reality and a HOT AF body to go with it all.

So if you want a sneak peek inside from outside of the box…

Click here to message me on Facebook!

And if you don’t, you were never meant to know or be a part of it anyways.